Song: Back Home

There has been wishes in my life
I hoped would come true
like early blooming flowers
and a sunny sky of blue

like dreams becoming real
hoping for sicknesses to end
like hope for rains in summers
and for fighters to make amends

but the dreams I wish most
to come true right now
is spending time with the family
and friends though I don't know how

Now Id give up my luxuries
just to be with my crowd
Id sacrifice tomorrow
just to ride this familiar cloud

For given up those times
when loved ones are near
no, I wouldn't give them up
those memories I hold dear
dreaming of those memories
made with times with them
makes me wish I where back home
oh back home with all of them
makes me wish to be back home
back home once again
back home once again

Poem: Unique Perfectly-Spectacular Ultimately-Beautiful

An amazing person, a spectacular friend.
A mature teenager with a brain to lend.
A beautiful woman complete with smile,
with a humbled attitude adding to her style.

A shimmering angel, a brilliant light.
A responsible adult, with respectable height.
An honest soul, with a pure-like heart,
and warm greetings of welcome straight from the start.

She's more than a million, a unique design,
an illuminating radiance, oh so divine.
A lavishing rose with her golden strands
and I know she's ready to conquer new lands.

Another day passes by

Another day passes by
and I always think why do I try
My friends seem to have all the luck
And I'm always the one who ends up getting stuck

If I could hate, myself it would be
for I can't stand the thoughts that run through me
The muscles in my face are a reminder
of the one that I've find but did I actually find 'er

So I get into things
games, work or whatever God brings
but, I always feel like something lacks
An award for losing, I'd have the most plaques!

Yeah so I don't talk much
I'm a listener & such
thinking about stuff
but the recurrence's are tough!

All in all, I feel it happens the same everyday, so repetitive it makes me sick. With nothing really to come to. Sure I have a family, friends, God, & a computer but I always feel like I'm lacking something. Tom was talking today about reading God's blog (that's the Bible for those of you who didn't know) and then theirs talking with God where you pray. The important thing however, is not talking at God, but to God. Not reading to gain knowledge but, to get to know God. I mean how many people you meet on the street that you'd ask what you'd do with your life? Odds are you'd say none! After all you have no idea who they are why would you want their wisdom? If you don't know God then why would you want to talk to Him, and ask him about what you should do. They say most teenagers don't take the advice of the people who've already experienced things, I'm not most teenagers. Advice, Wisdom, & what they say can have a huge impact in my life. I believe that has a huge factor in why I'm a listener rather than a talker. Unfortunatly, I've got to find a way to talk.

My top 5 Poems

Dreams

9/30

When you have a great dream
It is like whip cream
Full of rainbows and gold
To big for you to hold

a dream is a wonderful thing
its the greatest thing for you to sing
tells the future brings back past
so much detail comes & goes really fast

Dreams of how your life could go
Or something to fell better "woah"
Remeber that it wasn't real
But it can change how you feel

To shy to ask another out
So Ill sit without a doubt
Yet I talk with all my friends
Ingnore my dream, I do again

So go now and you should do
what your dreams tell you to
dont hold it in, let it free
and be the best you can be.

Davey Jones
02/24/06

I can say I feel like Davey Jones
As my heart feels like a bag of bones
to wish a lock apon my heart
then it wont feel like getting torn apart

I seal up my mind
so thoughts I do not find
Its what I see that I want
but then again she will haunt

Trying to drown this pain with the world
but they do not fit the mold
so I cry myself to sleep at night
just to have this Beauty always within my sight!

Real Men
02/030/05
What real men do
well let me tell you
real men pray hard
and work out in the yard

What real men choose to see
many things from the tops of trees
Give their time to the Lord
Now thats something anyone can afford

Real men still ride a rocking horse
for that is the best fun of course
Galloping along hanging on for awhile
Seeing that glowing cowgirl he often smiles

Well real men don't hate
& never ever rape
for they have righteousness in their hearts
of course some drive fast go-karts

Let yourself become like a real man
and join a Christian punk-rock band
and give to those who need it most
for you my friend will soon be toast

for real men die young
but your soul will soon be brung
so your evanglistic ways
is something that will always stay.



Through the ages
Elemantary times oh way back when
How I wish I could do it over again
I had one love who moved away
Cooties Cooties thats all they could say

A slight shift in middle school came
I joined in but a manly game
Populairity was given best
All the rest of us just passed our test

Highschool was worse with brutal dances
Walking through halls with illegal glances
Then it all ended I was home free
The day I lost love but to God, "Family," & me.

Now on in the world my work on my mind
Breathing easy as I start to unwind
Feels like something has gone amiss,
So I waste away in this online abyss.

What is?
(no date avaliable)
What is a flower
maybe a shower
where love flows down
shown thoughout town

What is a dove
maybe a glove
catch what you cant see
oh how can it be

What is a thorn
maybe being torn
bumps along the route
there'll be trails no doubt

Wha is a rose
maybe like a nose
smelling a fragrance so grand
you just want to hold with hands

What is a hug
maybe a mug
touch that warms up
or the love of a pup

What is a kiss
So complex as this
means so much
with a simple touch